I am being honest, I am really getting nervous to getting back in the groove of "stay at home mom" with no help at all. I got used to Andrew being home and us working together all summer with the boys. Do not get me wrong, I love being a full time mommy, but once you get used to that help and then knowing it is going to be taken away, it can be scary.
For instance, Xavier started 1st grade 3 weeks ago. Andrew and I have been taking turns getting up in the morning and getting him off to school. This way Zayden got to stay in bed longer and sleep in the morning. Well, next Monday it is going to just be me in the morning so I have to get back into a groove of getting both boys up and ready to head to the bus stop. I am not complaining, I actually love doing this, all last year getting X off to the bus and us coming back and cuddling on the couch with coffee and milk watching the Today Show was my favorite time of the day because it was so quiet, so I am hoping to get that little time back with Zayden.
Another reason why I am nervous is because Andrew doesn't know what his schedule is going to be like while training. Honestly, he only knows what time he needs to be there Monday, he doesn't even know what time he is going to be off. The unknown to me is what has me going crazy. I am such a planner, so not knowing when he is going to be home and everything makes me insane. Xavier is getting much more homework and responsibility being in 1st grade, so when he gets home we have dinner, homework, baths, and chores to do before we go to bed. I try to have everything done and them up in bed by 8pm. I do not know how this is going to go when it is just mommy here in the evenings. I am really nervous I am not going to be able to do this. HAHA. Seriously, can I do this? Of course I can, it is going to take some getting used to.
The next few weeks I cannot promise how I am going to be blogging. I would love to be able to log on every night and have a chance to vent and document all the changes going on in the house, but I do not know if I am going to be able to do that. Sooo...wish me luck. I am going to need it. The next few months are going to be a big change.....but I just keep looking at the outcome.....and it is all worth it. We can do this! :)