Monday, September 15, 2014

I have been missing from blogging for a few weeks, but I promise I have a good reason. After being off of work since May, Andrew goes back to work Sept 22nd. We have been getting the house in order and the kids on a schedule, especially with Xavier being in school.

I am being honest, I am really getting nervous to getting back in the groove of "stay at home mom" with no help at all. I got used to Andrew being home and us working together all summer with the boys. Do not get me wrong, I love being a full time mommy, but once you get used to that help and then knowing it is going to be taken away, it can be scary.

For instance, Xavier started 1st grade 3 weeks ago. Andrew and I have been taking turns getting up in the morning and getting him off to school. This way Zayden got to stay in bed longer and sleep in the morning. Well, next Monday it is going to just be me in the morning so I have to get back into a groove of getting both boys up and ready to head to the bus stop. I am not complaining, I actually love doing this, all last year getting X off to the bus and us coming back and cuddling on the couch with coffee and milk watching the Today Show was my favorite time of the day because it was so quiet, so I am hoping to get that little time back with Zayden.

Another reason why I am nervous is because Andrew doesn't know what his schedule is going to be like while training. Honestly, he only knows what time he needs to be there Monday, he doesn't even know what time he is going to be off. The unknown to me is what has me going crazy. I am such a planner, so not knowing when he is going to be home and everything makes me insane. Xavier is getting much more homework and responsibility being in 1st grade, so when he gets home we have dinner, homework, baths, and chores to do before we go to bed. I try to have everything done and them up in bed by 8pm. I do not know how this is going to go when it is just mommy here in the evenings. I am really nervous I am not going to be able to do this. HAHA. Seriously, can I do this? Of course I can, it is going to take some getting used to.

The next few weeks I cannot promise how I am going to be blogging. I would love to be able to log on every night and have a chance to vent and document all the changes going on in the house, but I do not know if I am going to be able to do that. Sooo...wish me luck. I am going to need it. The next few months are going to be a big change.....but I just keep looking at the outcome.....and it is all worth it. We can do this! :)

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Sunday, August 31, 2014

I am so excited to finally be able to make a post about Andrews new career move! If anyone didn't know, Andrew got laid off from his job of over 9 years due to corporate outsourcing. He got the summer off but couldn't really enjoy it as much as he would of liked because the future was always on his mind. He was applying to different positions at different companies that he normally wouldn't have the chance to try...! After many interviews, tests, and everything else that went with it....He got the position of our dreams, he will be driving for Port Authority Transit....the big city buses in Pittsburgh. We couldn't of dreamed of anything better. We are so excited, he starts his training September 22nd and will be on his own at the end of November.

This job has so many perks and has opened so many doors for us. Andrew officially made me withdraw from school (didn't take too much convincing) and just to concentrate on our kids and family....I will not even have to think about getting a job, he wants me to just be the best mommy that I can be and to continue doing my dream job of being a stay at home mom! I hear more baby cries in our future.....hehe. We are also starting to take buying a house more seriously. We have started to make a "must have" list and a list that we can give or take on....even though buying a house will have to be another year or year and half we really want to keep a look out on areas and prices/size and things like that. Buying a house is going to be a long hard process for us because Andrew and I are very picky and know what we want, we don't want to settle for anything we don't deserve.

I am just so excited, the hours and stuff are going to be a big change for us, he will probably get the crappy hours and have to work weekends and holidays, but we look at it as more money in our pockets, we can always celebrate holidays later or on different days...right? It is all about family anyway!

Sorry, I just had to share my joy with the world, this is a huge change for our family and I just want to shout it from the top of the world!
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Friday, August 29, 2014

What are 5 things you are going to miss about summer?

1. SLEEPING IN! Although, I LOVE the schedule around the house....I miss not having to have a responsibility of getting a little one on the bus! 

2. Going to the pool.....even though we went only a handful of times because of the not normal summer weather. 

3. Summer Dresses! I love wearing summer dresses, they are so easy to put on and just be comfy but still look cute. I guess I can just throw an over sized sweater on some long ones or a jean jacket...right? 

4. Cook Outs! I love BBQ'ing and all the summer foods. Even though my hubby and I grill all year round (yes even in the snow) there is nothing like the summer time BBQ. 

5. Big Brother! I Love this TV saddens me that it is almost over. It is the one thing I look forward to every year! 

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Sunday, August 24, 2014

I am sitting here, on a Sunday morning with my complete shock I am sending my little boy off to 1st grade tomorrow.

Last year this time I was a complete emotional wreck because I was sending him alone all day to Kindergarten. This year, I am more excited that he gets to be with his friends get out of the house so mommy gets some quiet. LOL.

I always said in the past "I will not be that kind of parent that is excited for summer to end". Well, I am exactly that parent. I can honestly admit I am tired of trying to keep him busy and happy all day. I am tired of trying to do my chores only to be interrupted with "I am hungry" or "I am bored" whines. I am excited that I get to put his little butt on the bus and I can come back with only 1 child and get everything done and have some quiet house time. I am now....that parent. 

I am still in shock that I am a parent of a 1st grader. It is one thing to have a Kindergartner, that is a big step in itself, but in reality this year is the year everything starts to count. Last year was practice....which is soo needed...this year is more of a smack in the face. (Kindergarten is a BIG DEAL, I am not saying its not) This year is different because I logged into Xavier's class and reality smacked me in the face.....HE HAS DIFFERENT CLASSES. He has Science, Social Studies, Math, Spelling, English, etc. Is this real life, is my little man growing up....and the answer is YES. I pray that he doesn't have homework in these classes, how am I going to keep up....I think I am more nervous then he is!

Anyone have any tips for this mommy? This mommy is one worried mommy. I cannot believe this is real life.

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Saturday, August 23, 2014

I am so sick of people commenting and running their mouths about the Michael Brown case...actually I am sick of white people talking as if race has nothing to do with this officers actions. If you are a white person that doesn't think race has anything to do with this case, you are living in your own little world and you are more scary then the person that is our right racist.

I am a wife of a black man, and my kids are I understand what black people go through on a day to day basis. I obviously do not understand or go through all of it, but I understand it more then the white family down the street that get to do things in life without having to deal with the looks and the mistreating that we go through. If we go through that as a blended family, I cannot imagine what a black family goes through day to day.

For instance, we were at a department store a few weeks ago and we got followed around and asked if we needed "help" throughout our whole time there. Reading this as a white person you might say "that was not racist, they were trying to help you". That is when I laugh and think to myself "you poor white privileged person" (yes I think that about my own race too) What we went through was "I am going to watch you and "act" extra nice so I can keep my eye on you so you don't steal from my store".

When it comes to the Michael Brown case I cannot understand how ANYONE can justify a cop shooting an unarmed man at least 6 times. SERIOUSLY....6 TIMES? I understand the argument of "he charged the officer". I thought officers were not trained to kill, they were trained to wound, to stop the person from coming after them. 6 times? 6 freaking times?

I have been posting pictures that support the protesters in the Michael Brown case on my Instagram and on my Facebook. I have lost a total of 19 IG followers and 2 Facebook followers over it. Race really brings out the truth in people.

Someone on my Facebook posted "they are not on the bandwagon of supporting Michael Brown". Is that what you call what we are doing? To me that showed how this person really feels about others. You think that me standing up for my husband, my sons, my family "on the bandwagon"? I feel that this person is on the white privileged bandwagon....!

I am sorry this post is all over the place, I am just so overwhelmed with emotion on this the past few weeks and I am so angry at how a lot of white people are looking at it....looking at it through their eyes of never having to go through racism a day in their lives and not looking at it through the eyes of people that have to over come daily obstacles because of the color of their skin. Believe it or not people, racism is out there and it is out of control.

Rant over.

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Friday, August 22, 2014

Name 5 people you are blessed to have in your life. 

Sometimes you have to remember who you are thankful to have in your life. Can you name 5 people that you are truly thankful to have with you everyday of your life?

1. My sons, Xavier and Zayden: These boys are the light of my life. I cannot imagine life without them. I can be having the worlds worst day, but they change that. Honestly ever since the day Xavier was born, I can honestly say that I haven't had one real bad day! <3

2. My husband, Andrew: He has been in my life for over 10 years....he is my rock. I couldn't get through a day without him. He is the best father, husband, MAN that anyone could ask for. I am lucky that I found my other half. There is not a day that goes by that I am not proud to say he is my husband.

3. My mommy- She stands up for me, loves me, listens to me, we are TOTALLY there for each other. I have learned I got my sick mind from her, we are connected. I could't be where I am today without her. I know she will be there for me no matter what. I love her more then she will ever know!

4. My daddy- Me and my dad are too much alike. My grandma always told us we didn't get along because we are too much alike, I always argued with her, but now I see that we are 2 peas in a pod. I love him, he is always there for me and my little family. I learn so much from him. I love my dad more then anything. He is the best.

5. My 2 best friends, Alexis and Erica- these 2 are there for me no matter what. I text them about anything and everything, and they put up with my craziness. A text about my poop to my kids, they never know what they are going to get when they see a message from me......if anyone can put up with that....then they are the ones for me!


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Monday, August 18, 2014

I have been noticing some major changes when it comes to people undergoing weight loss surgery. I am a member of a few groups on Facebook that is supposed to be a support system for people that have had and are considering the surgery....and it makes me shake my head at some of the questions that are asked from people that have already had the surgery.

Let me give you my background if you don't already know. I had WLS (Gastric Bypass) on 11.11.10. My insurance would only cover me if I went through the whole 6 month process of tests, meal planning, and documentation with my PCP every month. I then submitted all that to my insurance and they approved me. In that 6 months I met with my surgeon many of times, also a nutritionist, and a shrink. Every meeting I had, I would bring my note book and folder, take notes and ask as many questions as I could think of. I asked everything and anything. I used my 6 months to learn as much as I could about what my life would be after surgery. I thought about this process as "my last chance" and wanted to be healthy for my kids and husband. As much dieting and exercising as I did my weight would never come off. I documented everything that went into my mouth for 6 months, and my PCP documented my weight. My surgeon and "Nut" would sit down with me and read over everything I ate in that 6 months good and bad and then tell me what I could of done better and what I should/could replace certain foods with so it would be a healthier choice, especially after surgery. I used my 6 months to mentally prepare.....and I felt that is why I have done so good. My surgeon taught me and knocked into me that PROTEIN was what I needed after surgery. Carbs, fruits, veggies, etc were just fillers...I needed to learn to get my protein in during the day before I touched ANYTHING else. It is written though out all my notes that I took. That being said, I didn't eat a carb for I think 10 months. I went through ketosis, my whole body stunk because it was burning fat at such a high rate....but my surgeon warned me, that was "normal" and meant I was on track and really sticking to the diet.

That brings me to this post. I sit here in these WLS groups and the people coming in ask questions and I want to bang my head off the wall.  Some people are 7 weeks out trying to find a way to eat a bagel? One lady found "high protein" bagels and think they are 7 weeks out and eating that amount of carbs is not good...she is never going to get to goal weight because she is already finding ways to "cheat". I want to be like "did you not learn anything in your 6 months prep"? Then there are insurances that do not make people do all the tests and they can just get the surgery. How can anyone learn what life is going to be like after the surgery if they do not take 6 months to really learn. I would of waited 12 months to prepare myself if I had to because that mental prep was needed.

There are doctors now that do not do the 2 week "hell weeks" anymore. Which is what I had to do out of surgery. For 2 weeks I had NOTHING but clear liquids....I could have a protein drink though, but at that time I couldn't find one I liked. Out of surgery patients are now going straight to pureed foods? I lost the most during that 2 weeks of clear liquids. It was hell, but worth the first 30lbs I lost!

There was another person that came into the discussion, she was concerned and asking why we did surgery if we have issues with loose skin and rashes and the normal things us WLS patients KNOW and UNDERSTAND but deal with for our health. She wanted to get surgery but those things bother her. UMM....just because we are now skinny doesn't mean we don't have to deal with issues. We well I (I can only speak for myself) didn't do this for looks...I did this surgery to be healthy for my family. I can camouflage my baggy skin (and I have a lot), hair loss....big deal, and rashes...I found ways to take care of that....but being ALIVE and HEALTHY out weighs any of those things. If loose skin is going to be an issue, shoot...if you even think about loose skin...this is not a surgery for you. I can honestly say I thought about the loose skin only when it was brought up to me. I knew going into the surgery I was morbidly obese (I still have a hard time admitting those words) so I knew that my skin was going to hang....didn't bother me. I wanted to be healthy.

With all this being said, I am just concerned that doctors are not taking the WLS process as serious as it is. WLS is becoming more relaxed to insurance companies and they are not requiring what they did in the past.... and that scares me. I do not think people understand that this is NOT an easy way out, how is rearranging our bodies on the inside and risking death (remember being morbidly obese and getting surgery is not the best 2 combinations) the "easy way out"? People that think it is easy do not live with us that have had it and puke, are sick, not get enough vitamins, dump....and everything else that comes with is not EASY. People on the outside think that "oh they just got skinny" not understanding all the negatives that we put up with.

I just think that if you are going to consider WLS, you need to really study and be ready. You need to understand that there are a lot of changes that come along with it, things that never go away, things that happen to your body that you can never change.

It is not EASY, it was never meant to be, and never should be taken that way.

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